all things happen for a reason

Alright so let's begin at the beginning. There we were (me, roomate ginger, and friend liza) in the car on the way to wyoming to wish good friend mark good luck on the mission. It was the beginning of what was supposed to be an epic weekend full of a glorious road trip and saddened goodbyes. Coming out of coalville my almost dead phone starting ringing with the highlighted name "home" thinking they were just wondering where we were on our journey i happily answered the phone and started chatting immediately while not really listening because liza was telling a ridiculously important story about a boy... then the words "grandpa fell" rang through my ears and to be honest i dont really remember the rest of the phone call. i pulled over crawled into the passenger seat rather than the drivers and told ging to drive to ogden. this grand adventure was turning very quickly and not for the better.
After crying the drive to ogden, thank goodness we were close to the ogden exit and didnt have to turn around or anything of that sort, we ran into the hospital ready for anything and everything. after walking into grandpa's room and being reassured that all was ok the first thing he says tome is "dont you have a boyfriend yet?" this was after he scanned the room to make sure no boys were in tow... oh gramps what a gem, caring about everyone else ALWAYS even while he was connected to tubes and uncomfortable to boot he was asking about me and wondering why i had girls with and not boys.. ha ha so we visited for awhile and after talking to the nurses and being told he would still be stable the next morning and being told countless times from gramps that he was "fine" we decided we probably should get some sleep seeing as it was a long long night and we still could make it to wyo to say the nervous goodbye the next morning.
well morning came and part of me will always regret the decision i made to stay in salt lake but i guess we make all choices for a reason and although i dont know why i made that decision maybe one day i will. sunday was filled with a wonderful hospital visit and good times with the family in my beautiful summery farewell mark dress and thoughts that i could be enjoying the day with old friends at home but there i sat. then on the drive home to utah county ginger kept saying just go just go just go, and now monday morning i wonder why i didnt. this better have a dang good reason for staying here because there is a giant hole in my heart at this moment in time.
all things happen for a reason, and if you know my reason let me know!

spring is here

the flowers are out, the trees are green, and the world is turning a leaf over ready to show us what it's got. hopefully its worth turning over! so here i am sitting in my friend beck's house with her dogs while she is enjoying the sunshine of florida. what a lucky duck i wish i could go back there! life is good. school is long, work is getting better every day, and love is in the air! not for me however, somehow cupid missed me this time around. its just so exciting to get to hear and plan for road trips to share my kirst, and to plan the wedding of ging... what more could i ask for, a full time consultant :) some days i have a really hard time being positive, it just happens we all know that, so what is a better way than to make a thankful list of things i am grateful for and things i should be more grateful for.
rain
the sound of wind outside the door
talking to sisters after its been awhile
crying for no appaerant reason
crying for every reason
laughing so hard it hurts
camping with my new tent
smelling like a campfire and relishing in its goodness
being with friends constantly
texting dan whenever i want
learning about hair
being with my hair school girls all the time
living with ging and knowing life will always be interesting
living with claudia and chatting with her often
the warmth of the sun
a new job
singing at the top of my lungs so my dear friends can hear me down the road
going in the mountains every wednesday for zen something or other... mostly just going in the mountains
calling whoever and loving to just chat
getting the best birthday present ever from the most wonderful family in the world
being able to do what i love, and love what i do
making new friends
knowing i have not too much longer in school!
having the world at my fingertips and being able to do whatever i want with it
having the best sisters in the world who know just what to say and when to say it
finding new music to love
getting stellar deals on hair products!
being tan enough to not paint my nails and they still look fab
laying out and getting baked in the sun
making dinner
eating blackberries
organized station at the salon
playing with little kids all the time because everyone knows thats what i do best
getting to say goodbye to loved ones when they leave
seeing the gilberts often, and sharing my life with them
knowing that next week the cupcake store is going to see a lot of me
jumping on laura from schools tramp and feeling like i am at home
sitting up and talking all night long to great girls
knowing that cait kirst and aubs are always there no matter what
swimming, or planning swimming as soon as it warms up in a lake somewhere dreamy
listening to grand music and loving every second of it
doing aunt laurels toes for mother's day, with kris sitting next to her! what a lucky girl i am with all my dear mom's!
calling mom and venting to her all the time about the drama of hair school. who would have ever thought that a place bursting with girls would have drama???
having short easy to manage hair. wow its the best
going on rad road trips for short and long periods of time.
so its a shortened list, but i am quite tired and want to go to bed... goodnight my fellow bloggers!